March 26, 2012

Still LOVE London

Life in London recently really has been SO much fun!!
And its mostly mostly mostly because of the people I am surrounded by.
Feeling incredibly lucky...
Heres a wee few shots from recent fun times.

March 21, 2012

Turkey.....last summer

These are just a tiny selection of the hundreds of photos I took on our trip to Turkey last summer. I've been holding out to post them because I wanted to create a wee movie with them. Well...I did it, but the quality is not the greatest (of the pictures once they are uploaded to youtube) so whilst I ponder over my next step....I wanted to give you a wee sneak peek.

Hope you enjoyed! Already looking forward to summer 2012.....

March 11, 2012

I am....

Two of the most powerful words in the English dictionaries.

I am sensitive.

That has been my thing and these words have helped create my existence.

I have spent multiple years not just excusing myself to others for being sensitive, but telling myself I am sensitive. I've called myself into the realm of being sensitive. The more I told myself and others I was sensitive, the more and more sensitive I became. Associated with sensitive is fragile and associated with fragile is weak. And so by calling myself sensitive, I have now deemed myself as fragile and weak (subconsciously?).
Why did I do 'I am sensitive?' Quite possibly because I was looking to be cared for and wrapped up in cotton wool.

Am I sensitive? - no, Am I fragile? - no, Am I weak? - most certainly not!

I CAN be all these things as I'm a human being who reacts to how I feel. I can be all these things because I care about others feelings, I'm not afraid to cry, to feel hurt, or to acknowledge when things have defeated me.

But I am actually a very strong woman!

And by using these very powerful words, I will be able to bring myself and my life into a new realm of existence and open the door to a whole world of opportunities.

Think about the language you use to describe yourself.
And I dare you to also think about how why you do your 'I am.....'

For making this realization, I will not become a different person.
I will simply choose my word with more precision for I am aware of how powerful our words are.

March 3, 2012

Am I honest?

So I just want to clear something up. Despite my last post - I definitely engage in honest relationships with those people around me. Talking is my favourite form of therapy, hence the reason why I share with those around me whether I be feeling happy, upset, anxious, excited or otherwise. I expose my faults and my flaws and I celebrate my strengths. My family and friends know pretty much anything that happens in my life. And while thats hardest with my dad (lets face it, whose parents want to hear when they are heartbroken) its also not hard, because my dad is receptive and loving (AND I LOVE HIM!).

So what have I learnt? I have learnt that I am not always 100% honest with myself. This is a problem and I know I'm not alone on perfecting this ability. We humans, if we want something bad enough, we are able to convince ourselves that the position we find ourselves in will work itself out. That guy who doesn't quite fit the ticklist, he has this, he has that....then he fits. Same goes for jobs, friends, you name it. Its never our fault and we are never wrong. Never. We are able to trick ourselves into thinking everything is okay. That other people who point these things out to us are wrong also. And we are right about that. Never ever wrong.

But heres the thing. We know and realise when things fall apart in most avenues - that we in fact knew this was destined to happen all along. Yip thats right, we can have honest relationships with the people in our lives, but when it comes to us, to number 1 - why is it we don't follow these same principles?

The same goes for Integrity. All integrity is is KEEPING YOUR WORD. Yes, you very well may be reading this and thinking - 'I have integrity! I keep my word! I follow things through.'
But give this time to sink in. Keeping your word.

Do you keep your word to yourself? Think about it.
Do you spring out of bed in the morning when your alarm goes off for the gym? Or do you hit snooze and roll over?
Do you promise to never allow yourself to be treated with less that 100% love and respect? Or do you slowly but surely, drop your standards?
Do you tell yourself, tomorrow you'll quit your job? Tomorrow you'll make that phone call? Tomorrow you'll change your life? Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow.

Its easy to keep your word to others. Its harder to keep your word with yourself.
Its easy to be honest with others. Its harder again, to be honest with yourself.

Its not hard to change this though, the first step is recognising these notions. The next is keeping them in mind during your day to day life.

Honesty and Integrity. Its what its all about.